The world is so weird and inexplicable.Sometimes you encounter people who are lame and freakingly irritating like me,or even people who wear masks(pretend) and preferred by lots of people for being good and always betray/backstab their friends.But,there are still those out there who have a listening ear and understands people's misunderstanding and such.But,those masks bearer always thinks that that irritant is jealous. FYI,i really HATE to the core people who wear 'masks' and likes to act big,and it's very irritating when that person which you always lend a hand to and whom you always care for as a friend.(I just don't want to use the word "bestfriend" because it's a very strong word) I know myself that I'm an irritant,lame,and also wears a mask;as everyone does it,but I just hate it when these people you always helped throws eveything back at you and is stingy when it comes to you,only you.yes,you cannot avoid these stingy people but you just need to feel the pain behind it.Some people understand that they're human beings with feelings,but some of them didn't understand that others are like them too.Mistakes are mistakes and it you need time to improve. Actually I'm the one who is at fault,but everytime I make a mistake,it wasn't forgiven for a very long time but when any other person makes a mistake,I tend to easily forgive them but only if it didn't hurt me that much.But whatever I did,I always apologise. But,this person whom I know of,has no shame and lies everything to others.Although I was at fault,it was easy to understand,like I said I was irritating. But,my anger and "fed up" have been tightly hold on to me that I keep it to myself,but last Thursday was the dead end.I'm so damn hurt,angry and crestfallen by someone's misconduct. I always hate it when it comes to friends or bestfriends,only some of them.I hate it when a bestfriendfriend talks things that are hurtful to another friend,in front of you.I hate it when a friend doesn't treat you as a bestfriend.I hate it when you sacrifice and help that friend of yours and then you get everything back slammed on you.I hate a friend who doesn't understand.I hate it when someone calls you a friend but has something else inside his heart;these are not your true friends.
That is what i get previously.I'm utterly disgusted and annoyed by some people.I'm really disappointed by what these people did to me;stepped on me.But it is sad to say,after I knew everything,the true self of this"bestfriend",it makes me certain that the friendship is not a true one... I cannot do anything better but just to drift away,as these people do not deserve to be my bestfriendfriend and I don't deserve to be their friend because maybe I am different that what they want.I'm full of faults and mistakes.I'm very hurtful,crestfallen and disappointed;speechless.I hope this person doesn't need to call me a friend anymore beause I don't want to be one.And this person is neither a bestfriend/close friend nor a friend before,this person is just a liar.
I just don't like to talk about this but it has reach a level that I can't stand anymore,this is life.I'm sorry,but goodbye.
